My sister had shared with me the Gospel using the Campus Crusade for Christ booklet, “Four Spiritual Laws,” but it wasn’t till two months later that I made the decision to accept Jesus into my life.
On this day today, nearly four and a half decades ago, I prayed a simple prayer: “Jesus, if You really are who You say You are, then come into my life.”
As you can see, it wasn’t a real definite prayer like, “Come into my life, as I know you are my Lord and Savior and Friend, and I want to be born again and be washed in the blood of the Lamb.” No, my prayer was tentative, but with a hand up. And yet the Lord took my baby steps and grabbed my hand.
What have I learned in the last 4 and-a-half decades?I have learned of Jesus’ immense grace and comfort. He is indeed the God of the Second Chance, or make that, the God of the Infinite Next Chance.
Having gone through the painful adolescent years of a new believer, a divorce, an “F” in New Testament class in Seminary, a miscarriage, a near-death through disease of our youngest child, hurting betrayals of friendship, and being told while in seminary that I shouldn’t be a pastor, I have seen time and time again that God is trustworthy. He brought me out of the ashes like the mythical phoenix.
There’s always a new chapter. A few weeks ago, Pam and I celebrated our 29th wedding anniversary. Not only do I have a wonderful wife, we now have 3 healthy kids who love the Lord. The seminary I got an “F” at is where I now serve on the Board of Trustees. God has given me a bouquet of wonderful friends. And, by God’s grace, our church is one of the largest in our denomination and it keeps growing in spite of me.
I have also learned the truth of Isaiah 41:10: “Do not fear for I am with you. Do not be afraid for I am YOUR God. I will help you. I will strengthen you. I will lift you up with My victorious right hand.”
I need not ever be afraid. And God is not a god who’s way out there and who doesn’t care. No, He is MY God. He wants a personal relationship with me. And though life is not all about me, He will help me and strengthen me and will lift me up with His hand that is always victorious, though I may not see it that way all the time.
I have also learned that physical and emotional healing is for today. I used to think that the miracles in the Bible, especially the physical ones, were only in the days of the Gospels and the Book of Acts. I know that Jesus instructed His disciples to “preach the good news, cast out demons and heal the sick (Mark 6:12 & 13). But for years I concentrated only on the first item on that list, bypassing the last two.
I have since adjusted on how I look at those instructions from Jesus. I have since understood and prayed for many to get healed and have seen many get healed indeed. I have prayed for people who have been healed of aches, pains, diseases and who have awakened from comas (4 times!)
Just last week I had wrenched my back and was in tremendous pain and hunched over for days. I asked a friend to pray for me, and after the prayer, my pain was gone!
I have also learned to never give up. There are times when I was not sure if my church (First Presbyterian Church of Honolulu) or Hawaiian Islands Ministries (HIM) would make it financially. But the Lord always somehow provided. In fact, HIM celebrates its 28th year this year while First Prez celebrates its 52nd year! Still alive! Still afloat in the sea of God’s grace.
I have learned that God often calls us to things beyond what we think is within our capacity. Like in the 1983 Woody Allen movie “Zelig,” I feel like I’m Zelig who keeps popping up in well-known, public places.
I, Zelig, have spoken to full stadiums and arenas in the U.S., the largest church in the world (South Korean), Oxford University (Centennial C.S. Lewis Conference, England), in the largest venues in Hawaii without me purposefully planning for it. I never sought it. I never prayed for it. But these opportunities plopped in my lap.
I also don’t think that I am that great a speaker. But God keeps calling me off the bench to run on the field and make a play that I think I am not capable of doing. BTW, my speaking in a remote conference in Thailand to 100 teenagers/young adults of poverty was just as fulfilling than the bigger events.
I have learned that I am the Rodney Dangerfield of Christianity. As Dangerfield would say, “I don’t get no respect.” I say that because my wife has observed that people have no qualms about criticizing me or my ministry to my face! My friend Howard says I have the gift of “talk stink to my face.”
It hurts when people do that but I suppose the positive part of it is that they feel I am approachable.
This leads to my next personal lesson.
I have learned to always seek reconciliation. When people are mad at me, I have learned “the art of judo” in which I take the full force of their complaint and agree with them on how I have messed up. Or, if I thought I had done as poorly as they said I have, I’d tell them I would be angry at me too. I have found that by keeping my mouth shut and/or agreeing with them while they’re venting, we have a great chance of reconciliation. I would say I have reconciled with 99% of the people who have been angry with me. They often hug me in the end.
I have also learned that fads are fads. Yes, HIM and First Prez try to keep up with the times and be on top of new technology, like with this blog, Facebook and Twitter. But using popular ministry techniques just because they are popular or successful for other churches doesn’t necessarily mean they will build strong, healthy churches. Strong themes of biblical principles build churches.
I have also learned that if you aim to build a healthy church and work on removing the barriers to its health, then growth will take care of itself. I have never said in a board meeting that we must grow as a church by 33%. Sure, we set strategic and measureable goals, but we aim for health that will give a context for qualitative and, yes, quantitative results. Having an emotionally healthy church is a better goal than a numerically growing church.
I have learned that when it comes to money, you cannot out give God. Time and time again when Pam and I have decided to give a substantial gift to a ministry, God responds in a way that dwarfs our gift. It’s not that we are doing Him any favors by our gifts. He can do it without us. But I am amazed how His blessings back to us far exceed our giving.
I have learned on the days that I have my devotional time with God, that those few minutes alone make my day a hundred-fold better than the days I forget to stop and visit and share with Him. For me it’s journaling, praying or reading the Bible. The day is so much more resilient and wise when I actively carve out time to talk to Him than when I don’t. It’s such a “duh!” for me that I don’t know why I don’t do it more often.
I have learned that as Christ-followers we must side with those in need – children in poverty, people who need compassion like gay people and those emotionally bruised. These three groups of people have been friendless for so long. We need to be a friend to the friendless.
I have learned that wisdom and humility are goals to pray for and live out.
And I have learned, that God does take me as I am. As I stretch out my hand, even if it is dirty, or hurt or used improperly, God always grabs my hand and wants to help.
It’s been a great 44 years of knowing Him.
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